uch I hate staying in......

So for the last few days I have stayed in because of my head but tomorrow well I will be back out with my girls, I can't wait. I am going to go the whole hog, go to the hairdressers, hire a make up artist, go a whole new outfit and god I can't wait.

X has a online account so he can check his bill on the black card andn he has told me today I am not spending enough :) I really landed on my feet when I got him as a SD, I gave him his new watch today, and when I told him it was the first thing I bought him, well he got a little teary eyed and told me he didn't deserve me. He is so sweet and crying and he was just a little emotinal that the first thing I bought off the black card was a present for him. Thankfully X's wife is going away on hiliday again soon, and the 2 youngest well they go to bording school so we can go back to seeing eac other all the time. I dont know why X's wife bothers to stay married to him, after all she can't be that in love with him if she always wants to be away from him. So anyway back to the card he asked me if there was something I really wanted to buy, I said no so he suggested I buy myself another little car but put it in my name, so we are going round some dealerships this weekend he has offered to take me to the Bently dealership so I can look at a Bentley continential GTC in black llok it up its a awesome car, I love the model he has, but it is just the coupe version, so X said he wanted us to have matching cars, how cute is that!! X has also told me that he is putting the Range Rover in my name.

I think he is trying to show me that he is as commited as he could possibly be in this type of relationship which means a lot to me, he has told me before that he loves me, as I have told him too but we don't say this regulary as I think it would hurt us both too much. X asked me today if I would stay wit him for the rest of my life in this situation and I actually told him yes, I have never had these kind of feelings in a "normal" relationship so why would I let that go. And do you know the best thing I think X's wife has a bit on the side, there has been a bit of buzz about this round towm for the last 4/5 months so now all that needs to happen is she needs to get caught and then she won't get as much in the divorce as if he divorced her. X would never leave her penniless but he also doesn't want her to have of his money when all she has ever done is bitch about his long hours and that she has never worked in her life.

Yes you may think that this is abit of a double standard for me, but I have worked from the age of 16, and once I decide what career I want then I will go back to work, but for now X just wants me all to himself and wants to be able to call me whenever he wants and I will be there for him, in reason of course if I have plans that have been made for a few weeks then of course he understand that I can't always flake on my friends, and he knows that it is important for my to have friends who understand this lifestyle and don't judge me. But I know if I said I wanted to work or go to University he would be my biggest cheer leader.

Hope you are all enjoying my blogs, I am lovong writing them and seeing your comments it's what keeps me going and writing everyday, s please leave your thoughts and if you have any questions ask away as you can see I do always answer them.

Love

Jess Bunny

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